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* fragments of the same dead star
a girl who doesnt live life the way she wants it to be, peppering her existence with countless regrets along the lifelong journey
EARCANDY
why am i where i am right now.
is it my fault things turn out like this.
have i made so many wrong choices?
can't wait for december to come around and change things, everything.
i do
imo, an honest and personal take on body image issues
Portia de Rossi, from the Ally McBeal show, and also Ellen's wife
fave last moment
Portia: and i don't think that i'm perfect at all --
Ellen: i do
Portia: ohhh come on!
<3333
i'm currently suffering from an anxiety attack of sorts.
exams.
i must be very suay to have a paper on the FIRST day of exam period (saturday morning)
also, i must be very fucking suay to have 2 papers, 4 days after my first paper.
this means i have to more or less study everything all at the same time.
and, exams are in 2 weeks.
what's worse is i'm not done with school work to focus on studying for exams.
i'm fine with my theories of comms module, which is based on individual work so studying is within my own indv control. what's tricky is when other modules are based on project work. it can turn out good, and it can turn out bad. very bad.
the ad strat project i'd say is the one that turned out good. proj mates are not the serious nerdy type, we can all skip lectures and have dimsum breakfast and drink beer at holland v breko, yet when it's time to produce work it's done.
the critical interactive media one.... omg. don't get me wrong, i think the pple are nice. but why is it that they produce ZERO input, even when our report and ppt slides are due in 3 days time? HELLO WAKE UP PPLE this is 30% of our grade. i don't want to brag, but i'm stating the facts. i'm the one who push email discussions, try to arrange a meetup for everyone to make it (so far not working??), set up the google docs and i have alr drafted up the first half of the report. what's worse is i'm not exaggerating when i say the rest have NOT DONE ANYTHING AT ALL. maybe they have done their research, but so far it's not translated into actual deliverables that we can hand in. it's fucking late alr pple. yeah i know we all have other different deadlines, but why push this one in particular to the back i rly dont understand. it's quite upsetting cos i feel it's not fair to me when you all ignore my emails just cos you're busy?? all have smartphones to check email and reply on the move, and i don't okay. i'm setting myself a deadline to finish my part of the analysis, but i'm very sure none of you are going to do the same. 3 days to submission and we have no report and ppt. and i hope someone else offers to do the ppt okay, since i seem to be the only one formatting and drafting the report.
i think i won't feel so angsty anymore once everyone gets their part done and our presentation is over. but as of right now... this rly stinks and i can't help feeling pissy at the lack of initiative you all display. if by some chance 3225 grpmates you chance upon this, i'm not gonna feel sorry cos i honestly feel this way right now. i'll only feel better after we get this done and over with.
and then i can worry about exams.
little lion man
but it was not your fault, but mine
and it was your heart on the line
i really fucked it up this time
didn't i, my dear?
a girl who doesnt live life the way she wants it to be, peppering her existence with countless regrets along the lifelong journey
EARCANDY
Tuesday, November 23, 2010 @ 1:19 AM
why am i where i am right now.
is it my fault things turn out like this.
have i made so many wrong choices?
can't wait for december to come around and change things, everything.
Sunday, November 21, 2010 @ 3:20 PM
i do
imo, an honest and personal take on body image issues
Portia de Rossi, from the Ally McBeal show, and also Ellen's wife
fave last moment
Portia: and i don't think that i'm perfect at all --
Ellen: i do
Portia: ohhh come on!
<3333
Sunday, November 07, 2010 @ 1:16 PM
i'm currently suffering from an anxiety attack of sorts.
exams.
i must be very suay to have a paper on the FIRST day of exam period (saturday morning)
also, i must be very fucking suay to have 2 papers, 4 days after my first paper.
this means i have to more or less study everything all at the same time.
and, exams are in 2 weeks.
what's worse is i'm not done with school work to focus on studying for exams.
i'm fine with my theories of comms module, which is based on individual work so studying is within my own indv control. what's tricky is when other modules are based on project work. it can turn out good, and it can turn out bad. very bad.
the ad strat project i'd say is the one that turned out good. proj mates are not the serious nerdy type, we can all skip lectures and have dimsum breakfast and drink beer at holland v breko, yet when it's time to produce work it's done.
the critical interactive media one.... omg. don't get me wrong, i think the pple are nice. but why is it that they produce ZERO input, even when our report and ppt slides are due in 3 days time? HELLO WAKE UP PPLE this is 30% of our grade. i don't want to brag, but i'm stating the facts. i'm the one who push email discussions, try to arrange a meetup for everyone to make it (so far not working??), set up the google docs and i have alr drafted up the first half of the report. what's worse is i'm not exaggerating when i say the rest have NOT DONE ANYTHING AT ALL. maybe they have done their research, but so far it's not translated into actual deliverables that we can hand in. it's fucking late alr pple. yeah i know we all have other different deadlines, but why push this one in particular to the back i rly dont understand. it's quite upsetting cos i feel it's not fair to me when you all ignore my emails just cos you're busy?? all have smartphones to check email and reply on the move, and i don't okay. i'm setting myself a deadline to finish my part of the analysis, but i'm very sure none of you are going to do the same. 3 days to submission and we have no report and ppt. and i hope someone else offers to do the ppt okay, since i seem to be the only one formatting and drafting the report.
i think i won't feel so angsty anymore once everyone gets their part done and our presentation is over. but as of right now... this rly stinks and i can't help feeling pissy at the lack of initiative you all display. if by some chance 3225 grpmates you chance upon this, i'm not gonna feel sorry cos i honestly feel this way right now. i'll only feel better after we get this done and over with.
and then i can worry about exams.
Wednesday, November 03, 2010 @ 2:29 AM
little lion man
but it was not your fault, but mine
and it was your heart on the line
i really fucked it up this time
didn't i, my dear?