* fragments of the same dead star



a girl who doesnt live life the way she wants it to be, peppering her existence with countless regrets along the lifelong journey



EARCANDY

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the more things seem to change
the more they stay the same

so i figured i hate myself.
actually no what i meant to say was that i managed to dig out old photos of myself and i kept saying "what the hell was i thinking, wearing that? looking like shit" but it was more than the fashion disasters. i realized i didnt like pretty much everything about myself back then.

if only i could rewind time, and put who i am now into those little girl's shoes. i might have pretty much done everything differently, accomplished more things, and like myself better as a result.

sometimes i scorn people who don't change. the injustice they do to themselves and the pple ard them. i take pride in the fact that i always want to be better, but ashamed by the same degree that it never really happens.

now excuse me while i try to get my life back into shape.



beep!

last night i sounded the horn on a crazy van who cut into my lane, in a last minute attempt to cut across 3 lanes in order to turn left at the junction. (i was in the middle lane) all i can say is it's pretty much liberating to finally break out of my shell and sound that damn horn. if i didn't step on the brakes, confirm buang the van. he was so disgustingly close and zooming so fast, i had to let everyone else know what a bastard he was man.

i rilly shld have done it earlier to all those asswipes who got in my way in the past. that includes weird man walking against flow of traffic in middle of the road, gazing lovingly into the sky. <-- i think i'll never forget this dude haha


random:
i wanna go for duffy but i don't wanna pay for tickets hahaha.

i try all the time
in this institution

happy birthday fnkly! see u in a bit :)

so anyway, it's been a while since i've been up at this hour.
and it just hit me that i'm not a kid anymore. it's getting harder to act my age now. i still feel young and careless and free. (how irresponsible)

i cant imagine how hard it is on you, to always willingly give in to my silly childish demands.
my IQ level always drops to -5 whenever i'm w you, cos you so naturally assume the role of looking after me.

i guess in a way, you're the father i never had. that's why you're everything to me.

cdk without k = fcdl

where are youuuu kaka teo zi lei we need you we miss you!
i know you're feeling rather down lately i jus wanna give you a squeezy hug and make it all better!

li er wei er bonding over picnic. it was a perfect tuesday, free from all the stress and worries of school and life and everything. loved it dada :) love the presents too. sweet dreams from now on!

and now my feet quacks when i walk.

now it's back to reality. sucky school. free days become busy days and busy days are still busy days. so effed up right, i know. projects and proposals. deadlines deadlines. fffff!!!!!!!

i miss my bb can't wait for you to make it all better again.
technically not really better.. cos we are going running. i hate it but i want to be skinny so what to do. i secretly hope we end up swimming instead = play water and catch a movie and eat ice cream.

to punish and enslave--
heyy
so what did you get for presents
oh no i bought you jewellery too...


i want..
band tees. def leppard forever. and i kinda regret not buying a nouvelle vague tee when i saw it, cos that's the only one i saw here in sg and probably the only one i ever will. i like all their cover designs, but the bande a part album cover is my fave.
crown of hearts pendant by paloma picasso! i didnt realise picasso left behind a legacy of art thru his kids, well at least his youngest daughter. paloma had an inclination towards red.. smth i can relate to! but her style has mellowed down now, and her designs for tiffany & co. are rather simple but i'm strangely drawn to this one.
awesome watch.. but it costs a fucking $358! when i showed it to my sister she went "gasp! philippe starck!" i raised my eyebrows. turns out he's a celebrated product designer, yknw like one of those frank gehry people. so i guess it's shelling out more money for the designs from approved talent. but it's nice isn't it? well they're designers for a reason. the best part is.. my sister is getting it for me!! :D:D:D


i want cute pj's too! and warm fuzzy slippers :D
fuzz fuzz fuzzzzyyyyy

i want capucine! freda got me hooked to her videos. one of my favourite moments is when she stands next to the noddy car and said "i'm not scared, mom!" then proceeds to climb on it but ends up running away saying "oh i'm scared!" in the magic jackson scary bubble monster video.


and lastly... plane tickets to anywhere!


cathartica antartica

will not be forgotten