* fragments of the same dead star



a girl who doesnt live life the way she wants it to be, peppering her existence with countless regrets along the lifelong journey



EARCANDY

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sometimes i hate people
i hate how i expect them to be a certain way
(but they're not)
i hate how i expect myself to be a certain way
(but i'm not either)
i want to go away and be alone
the only person you can trust is yourself

more than ever..
why can't i be a better person?

emotive unstable

you're like an unwinding cable car
listening for voices, but it's the choices
that make us who we are

i'm living in the short-term
day by day
the 'cant wait for tmr to end' mentality
it's not going get me anywhere
but i'm stuck in it anyway




btw i hate it when you always do the same thing that annoys me
everytime i see you

you wouldn't do that to me
would you?

home club on friday night in shirt-shorts-slippers (sihui: what?! you still managed to get in??) not done on purpose.
but since it was a halloween event the bouncers probably thought i was dressed as a slacker :x
thanks da for dressing down for me!
i appreciate your attempt to up my glam factor by applying makeup on me haha.

i'm not in funkamaniaa :( justis isn't taking in firstyears.
but it's okay. wei na and i have a masterplan for 2009 ;>

and thank you mr candy for cleaning my ceiling fan for me
even tho you fell asleep on my bed last week and make me watch tv alone
you make embarrassed to face the world becos.. *secret*
you take it out on me when my desktop computer is laggy
you break my bedframe never say sorry and blame it on me (you lahhh)
you complain when the bus journey too long (are we there yetttt)
you complain when we're out and the weather too hot (i'm meltinggggg)
but i can now breathe fresh air so thank you thank you!


and considering how slack i am now, i'm hoping beyond hope i get a 3.5 CAP this semester.
i promise from now on i will spend more time on my work than on thinking about what to wear to school.

you shoot the moon
and miss completely

look, i dont want to resort to whining ..
but..
OMG I'M RILLY TIRED AND STRESSED AND STRESSED AND TIRED.
and..
I CANT GET DOWN TO WORK PROPER. MY MIND SAYS YES BUT MY HEART SAYS NOOOOOOO.
and..
I WANT THIS WEEK TO END.
no wait..
I WANT TO ENJOY LIFE AFTER NEXT MONDAY (damn that presentation)

in all honesty, it seems to me that there's nothing i can do to get my brain working in 5th gear. my futile attempts to concentrate by consuming insane amounts of cadbury chocolate is omg so detrimental but chocolate is all i live for these days.

there's so much going on, yet i'm getting nothing done.

i want talentime to be over. i want the tests and tutorials and datelines to be over.

i want to watch a movie/tv. i want to go swimming. i want ice cream. i want a good night's sleep. i want to go shopping.

i want to relax in peace damnit.

all i think about is my weird dream which contained reconciliation of sorts and a temporary paradise.

actually no i do think about other things but i have no time to dwell on them.

okay bye.

hey now, hey now
don't dream it's over

once upon a time
life was perfect
a bed of roses
with a huge cloud above it
but none of the roses realised
that the cloud was being neglected
(just like how you forget the sky is always there in the first place)
that cloud turned from white
to grey
to black

this was the period of the thunderstorm
the lightning struck everything
there were many dreadful nights
hatred was everywhere

the lightning convinced the cloud
to follow it to someplace else
where it woudnt be forgotten anymore
so the storm cleared
and the black cloud vanished
forever
but without that cloud
there was a hole in the sky

the bed of roses was unprotected from the scorching sun
but one of the roses had a secret to staying fresh
instead of wilting and dying
that rose used its own tears to water itself
it lives to this day

because the earth was so dry
the roses had to spread their roots wide and deep
to soak up as much moisture as they could get
and also to cling onto the ground in case they fall
their roots pushed further apart
but they had to
to survive and carry on living

suddenly the earth started to spin
faster and faster
and the roses forgot how sad they were
they were really good at pushing things out of their minds
so that life resumed as per normal
they all lived quite happily ever after
-the end-
(though it still wouldve been better if the cloud was around)




a short story.

it's (not only) friday
i'm in love

wish we could switch up the roles
and i could be that

it's blueblack season once again! my most unique one is the horizontal blueblack across my leg. but nothing beats my heart shape blueblack back in.. april? march?

i'm feeling the love yo! 5 pple coming to my door to deliver crush ice milo. while everyone is having a party outside my door..
me: "who do i pay?"
xinjie (stoning as usual, staring at my dishwashing liquid): "mama lemon"

HAHAHA


and happy birthday mikeymoo!

and also btw..

guess who's back
back again
****'s back
tell a friend!