* fragments of the same dead star



a girl who doesnt live life the way she wants it to be, peppering her existence with countless regrets along the lifelong journey



EARCANDY

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i just need you to tell me that everything is going to be okay.
where maybe to
or at least tell me something.
are i know.
other than the usual.
you don't
which in itself is already rather unusual.
now? want

i'm the sort of person who needs to put in twice as much effort just to achieve the same result as everyone else and that makes me feel stupid.



and with the radio blasting
goes cruising just as fast as she can now

i shall practise reverse psychology and do look forward to the A's. looking forward to the end of A's is good enough reason to look forward to it starting right? maybe not but i'll try thinking that way.

reasons to look forward to A's ending:
- little shop of horrors with rahrah! (now all we need are the tickets)
- o school!
- permanent weight-loss plan kicks in! (i'm still disturbed that 5 pple called me fat last friday)
- NO MORE STUDYING
- maybe nick will organise a post A's bonfire with his friends after all. burn books burn oh yea. with the overload of notes we have, i think the PSI could shoot up to 500.
- the dining table will be neat again! (it's rilly my fault it looks like a disaster)
- i think generally the house will look neat again! cos i can clear everything else.
- thailand!
- weekend getaway? as proposed by stefano gabanna (zhiying)
- chardaka! miss you both
- latenight pool sessions at parkway w jaenus anus and liting and liying! i miss insulting each other's lousy pool skills and laughing like happy drunk idiots at the mccafe till late.
- tanning! you dont want people mistaking me for a ghost do you. no seriously, you dont. don't say you do.
- SHOPPING. sarah makes me wanna be a brandwhore too. i want a gap something, gap anything!
- sleeping regular hours! my hello panda eyebags and screwed up eye lids will suffer no more.
- TV TV TV i wanna watch so many things all at once i think i should start borrowing dvds now

okay 3 mins more till my break ends. i hate it when i study one subject, which makes me abandon another. too little butter spread over too much bread is the perfect analogy for this situation.

on a sadistically happier note, yay the A's are coming!

she was a hummingbird song
she fluttered her wings but she would not come in
and i threw my weight at the door
but she held her ground and she would not come in

and most days i'm better than most
some days i'm tied to the post
yeah, most days i'm better than most
most days i'm tied to the post




nobody can ever get enough of a public affair. it's simply too catchy! if this song doesnt get stuck in your mind, there's something wrong with you. but the video disturbs me.. the skate rental guy creeps me out.

and omg omg youtube doesnt hate me anymore yay.

maybe if i'm not here, it would all go away. if i cleared everything from the back of my mind. perhaps if i numb myself, i wont feel a thing and if i dont feel anything i'd be fine. about 1985 and still counting, i think i can one day but somehow i still cant. perhaps not completely, but that's good enough.

i think my solution is to sleep more.

stay with me
this is what i need please

i can put stolen by dashboard on replay all day and not get sick of it :)

this morning wyna unknowingly made my day and for that she shall be my one and only :D !

sleep deprivation has its consequences..

this heart, it beats
beats for only you
my heart is yours

i've had this paramore song for ages but it was only yesterday that i thought to myself 'hey this song is good' and today nikki told me it's a good song and i'm like hey! song telepathy we have.

gee of all things my horoscope cheered me up today with lies



i'm still waiting for
you to be the one i'm waiting for

gawd i friggin miss dancing so hell much. where are my bruised knees.. what about running to the water cooler to beat everyone else.. forgetting steps and blindly following the better dancers.. hair ties that fly about after the turns.. hairpins dropping on the floor.. what about the stretching till it hurts real bad (jea loves inflicting pain here).. getting the counts right.. trying to move and give megawatt smiles like kaka's at the same time.. staying in your line instead of being off position with the rest.. collapsing on the floor after the song's over..

it's not easy at all, but the crazy people on sytycd make it seem so. rah everyone needs to let off steam and feel a little better and dance.

which of the standard lines will we use?
i've been meaning to call you
i've just been so busy
we'll catch up soon
let's make it a point to

MCQ: Q1. where has charlotte been today?
a) school
b) chinatown
c) arab street
d) tampines
e) all of the above

Q2. how many trains did she step into?
a) 5
b) 6
c) 7
d) 8

cheat sheet:
Q1. (e)
Q2. (b)

no wonder i'm tired. and i cant concentrate on studying anymore oh no.

to my rahrah amnesia girl,

i'm loving how you're the only one i know with the most randomnest moments possible. "hi wanna pierce nose or belly button with me?" and how can i forget the time when you suddenly remembered the name of your favourite barbie doll! back in our old kc days, you always piped up with "let's play a game!" whenever we had nothing to do.



























only you will make me think of poor baby birds who go whoosh! and end up in thailand. I'M MISSING YOU ALREADY!

xoxo, charlotte

O RLY? YA RLY

omg so retarded everytime i look at the pictures i end up laughing! seriously man how do people come up with all this la hahahahahhaha i'm retarded i'm still laughing

★ shàarlet says:
daph is there such a thing as chem overload
daph.* ; happy pills says:
hahaha
daph.* ; happy pills says:
if you'r asking me.. YES! ):
daph.* ; happy pills says:
saturation pt!
★ shàarlet says:
HHAHAAHA

i liken my studying capacity to ionic product = [charlotte+] [please study harder-]2
ip > ksp ---> precipitatation occurs: unproductive crap ppt
SIGH
seriously what am i doing. somebody save me.

you just have to dont you
at this time of the year
but all i have to do is simply disconnect

i'm quite peeved that jade wore a dress similar to what i have in mind :<
but that is secondary. tertiary if need be.

primary thoughts should be about chem, maths and econs.
monodentate ligands and asymptotes and fiscal policies yay.



cheer up buttercup. i feel helpless when i see you like that.
if that is all there is to it, then all we need is focus.

can i be your memory?


















what do you do with the things you want so dearly
but end up being the farthest from you
and what do you do with the things you want to lose
but end up staying with you forever?



i like alison kelly she's so driven and focused. but i'm feeling exactly like bradley and it sucks but he still pulled through in the end but as for me.. i dont think..

long day it has been, and i'm reminded by how i used to hate tampines mall cos it's always so much more friggin crowded than most places. and the supermarket doesnt have chilled drinks. and where is the escalator when you need it? and we wouldnt have gone in at all if the stupid cheers at the station didnt close.

and what IS with the interchange now and what's with that row of stupid shops in the way why must i have to walk around a useless stretch of weird things just to get to the buses and why are kids in tampines crying so much and why do their cries bounce of the walls and sound ten times louder.

i shld be glad i dont live there anymore tho i dont remember much of it except watching dragon dances in the field and walking to jie's primary school and playing in some playground and sitting in the long jump sand pit at the stadium. i think our hdb block was red.

i want to learn how to make my own dress one day and i can make one for zhiying's birthday too then it'll be dolce for gabbana.


enough.

that is it.

cheer up buttercup

to secretfriend: friendships are peculiar things. anything can happen, and that includes the worst. i dont want to probe and poke around too much, but whatever has happened will only show the true character of the people around you. people may fail you, but do yourself good and bring yourself together and leave it aside. it hurts when people can get totally sucky and selfish. but dont let it get to you. it will damage you, and you owe it to yourself to keep strong. and besides, dont let people know when they get to you. dont give them reason to be sadistically pleased with themselves.

as what jade said in this week's episode of antm, something like: love. it can be a beautiful thing. but it will also kill you.


mrs koh is back and she showed us pictures of erin and she is absolutely adorable aww!