* fragments of the same dead star

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* fragments of the same dead star

a girl who doesnt live life the way she wants it to be, peppering her existence with countless regrets along the lifelong journey

EARCANDY

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expectancy

just when i think about you (or lack thereof)
i see you once again.. but as always
only for a moment
too short to mean anything

don't expect too much out of anything
that's how i should live my life

random fact #1: i take ugly pictures :/

random fact #2: nikki makes me smile :)

i want to see you clearly
come closer than this

whoa.
okay so my tag button says SHOUT!
and that's what the girls seem to be doing on my tagboard haha!
i'm tickled

i will not be peeved at some woman i dont even know
just cos she thinks she goes thru so much shit when she hasnt
what does she know

ugh what do i know.
sometimes i think i know too much.
most of the time
i know nothing at all.

i dont fcuking know you at all.
why should i care when i know you dont.

ugh okay its the holidays
no reason to accumulate angst.
i'm off.

these dreams

omigahhhh i totally forgot about sytycd!!!!!!!!
gawd i can KILL MYSELF pls.

but every minute with mone was well spent.
tho she wasnt feeling too good..
no xmen... oh dear... (yay)
hehe
take care yes?
love your hair. hahaha

how do you measure a year

for ruilin:
some things never change.. you're still as frail as ever. you're still an awesome dancer. you're prolly doing well in school, and having tons of friends.
but then again there are the times that we can never go back to (though still fondly missed).
the times after school when i'd actually cab down to your house when i'm bored at home.. and we'd do different things each time. like watching scary movies in broad daylight, trying to play pool but ending up telling jokes and laughing all day, dancing in your living room, go swimming, having a shock going to your house one day only to find my neighbour (who's away from home so often that he didnt recognise me at all!) sitting on the sofa chatting with your dad (!! they happened to be colleagues)..
and since our register numbers were one after the other, mine 32 yours 33, we were together pretty much. standing together for morning assemblies and science lab partners. i remember you always singing songs to me in class. and you really helped me stay strong in my faith in God. and you'd be falling sick so often and everyone would be so worried for you. when you almost applied to tkgs, everyone was begging you to stay! and glad you did.
and after that we drifted apart. you went on to live your amazing life and achieving so much. seeing you on that stage with all that emotion, the passion was clear. i knew you'd shine, and you did. :)
despite all that time together mostly in our sec 2 year, one of my biggest regrets up to now is that i never truly appreciated our friendship. i wish i never took it for granted, but i did. and i still miss you dearly. i know you've moved on and so have i.. and i wonder if you ever think of me from time to time. i dont know if i meant as much to you as you did to me, and yknw it's okay with me really if you forget me down the road. but i'll just have you know that you've always had a special place in my life.

i see all my dreams come true
when i look into your eyes

take the lead

i'm posting little random posts for no particular reason..

hurry up sarah! hehe

kc dance tee kc dance tee!
cant wait cant wait!

gee i wonder what's in store tmr.. it better be worth waking up at 630 and taking 40 min train rides, and rushing off to restless straight after.

own the stage
burn the floor
i'm gonna see you shine

new fact of the day:
wow joanie's closer to me than i thought ;>

dear secretfriend:
no matter what you decide to do, i'll stand by you
clear your mind, listen to your heart
i'll save all my big hugs for you too

takeoffs and landings

without you 24/7
hope you're having the time of your life
i think you well deserve it
but do hurry back home

starry starry night

funny charlie chaplins we are x)
i'm just relieved that our highpants days are OVER.

rahh
TAKE ME OUT

every night.. ouch.

too much butter spread over too little bread.
it's amazing how i survived my manic monday on 2 hours of zzz.

no ketchup session with mone this week.
another reason to :(

ouch.

night has found its way here

time drags, then in a flash it's gone.

but anyhow, thanks to shuaz for being so sweet! that simple one-liner was smile-inducing. :)
and to mone for calling after work. (i've so much to tell you)
and to kaka for making the blah day much better. thai express lunches! (siglap / esplanade) we're food psychic. and the baboon series and on the phone status.

it's gonna be just another manic monday.

sometimes your world seems so dull and empty
then again i want some of the things you have
i marvel at the way you seem to make things happen
and then everything goes back to square one
dull and empty

who am i to say anything anyway
mine's no better

and i could see clearly
an indelible line was drawn
between what was good
what just slipped out
and what went wrong

you'll only miss me when i'm gone

i want to i don't want to

there's a reason why people don't stay where they are

strange one-second dizzy spells. hmm.

baby you don't have to take the fall.

trying my best to understand

if that's the truth
then i'd rather not know.

wait a minute. check back to the oc entry.
is devistatingly a word?
hmmm.

you know what? i like us very much. :) we've been thru trying times and the bratty side of me failed to realise that despite it all you've rilly been there for me.

those were my short hair days. it was only last year pple! wow. time flies.

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just surrender

tell me everything

i don't see it.

.derit os leef i
.pu evig ot tnaw i

whatever it takes
i'll make your darkest days so bright

does it matter that we're all gonna fail tmr's chem test? maybe not. maybe that's why we chose fun about the town to burying our noses in yellow books and carboxylic notes.

would you let me catch the diamond tears you weep

the more i let go
the more vulnerable i let myself be

but nevertheless
thank you

paint the silence

bye bye holiday