♥♥♥
* fragments of the same dead star
a girl who doesnt live life the way she wants it to be, peppering her existence with countless regrets along the lifelong journey
EARCANDY
so i think i can't dance. haha srsly. when i watch things like this one up here. gawd i'm so sux. maybe i need to go get my fat ass on a treadmill instead of wallowing in self-pity.
out of control
i'm tearing itself apart with an internal dilemma. my mind is insanely awake and restless, while my body is weak and shaking. it feels so bad and it sucks and i'm home alone and lonely and i really really really want to talk to someone.
i dont know if last night's insomnia was self-induced, inspired by ashley, or maybe i'm really falling sick. and what a wrong period of time too, i'd hate to miss rag pract cos i need it but i know i'll only make myself feel worse if i wear myself out.
even doing housework at home feels like the olympics. i crash onto my bed in defeat, but my mind tortures my tired soul and refuses to let me sleep.
on another note: i wish i were every little thing that i'm not.
i fantasize about being one of those people who can micromanage their lives, organize all their mess into where each thing shld be put in place, and voila! everything runs like clockwork. but 1) are such people merely a myth? and 2) without spontaneity and chance, what wld that make me?
a perfect robot. but perfection is admirable, no?
gay lo,
this one is for you
was looking thru the clutter of photos in my laptop and i found this screenshot
haha what a joker. you're totally missing from my life now! ALL our plans to meet end up failing. running away to hongkong (and you didnt even find chungking mansions or the midnight express stall) with only one night in advance notice. i painstakingly tried to find you nice things in bkk while you refused to buy me H&M in hk. wah thanks i love you.
finding nemo has just turned into finding nicholas.
stop making plans without me and fit me into a slot for say.. our onceuponatime weekly supper at siglap.
true
time to accomplish so many things..
one tiny step at a time
and it took me so long to see
that the sweetest heart belongs to you
queen bee with the honeyed sting
sorry if we all fall short of your excellence
but we fall even harder when your sweet choice of words
slice our rotten cores
one-of-a-kind girl
(but thank gdness there's only one of you)
strange.
to feel blessed and cursed all at the same time.
b to the k to the k
xoxocharly will be back on monday with lotsa goodies for family and friends and loved ones! for all those who made special requests, thank you for making my shopping search easier. eg. janice's singlet last year and droste cacao chocolate powder (..?) this year. good on you janice! for those who didnt.. well you just gotta see what i come up with.. probably last minute after i'm done with MY shopping haha.
its rather bad timing that i have my tummy tantrums and new this morning.. an ulcer. >:C <-- nette's angsty face. but i'm still determined to have fun no matter what.. a few eye opening experiences and lotsssa photos!
one more thing. since i travel so little (deprived), i have a paranoia of dying in plane crashes. so in case it rilly happens.. i just wanna say i love you and you and you and you and you you YOU.
xoxo.
beautiful blues
so once again o school plans failed on cdk due to upset tummies for all 3 of us. coincidence? hoho. brief meetup w bev, melly & nicole before fcdl <3to<3 talk on a bench at the war memorial park. mistaken ambulance turned out to be trishaw w bright lights. haha!
a couple of what-ifs have been running thru my mind lately. but it's too late to reconsider them neway. i guess the main point is how we're hindered by the present. we judge people based on the now, but pple change. as time goes by, they're gonna turn out different.. maybe better. moral of the story: time changes everything.. but sadly it's the only thing we can't turn back.
btw its interesting how i change my mind so easily, depending on my mood.
and okay goodnight before i utter more useless random nonsense.
a girl who doesnt live life the way she wants it to be, peppering her existence with countless regrets along the lifelong journey
EARCANDY
Thursday, July 31, 2008 @ 3:52 PM
so i think i can't dance. haha srsly. when i watch things like this one up here. gawd i'm so sux. maybe i need to go get my fat ass on a treadmill instead of wallowing in self-pity.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008 @ 3:56 PM
out of control
i'm tearing itself apart with an internal dilemma. my mind is insanely awake and restless, while my body is weak and shaking. it feels so bad and it sucks and i'm home alone and lonely and i really really really want to talk to someone.
i dont know if last night's insomnia was self-induced, inspired by ashley, or maybe i'm really falling sick. and what a wrong period of time too, i'd hate to miss rag pract cos i need it but i know i'll only make myself feel worse if i wear myself out.
even doing housework at home feels like the olympics. i crash onto my bed in defeat, but my mind tortures my tired soul and refuses to let me sleep.
on another note: i wish i were every little thing that i'm not.
i fantasize about being one of those people who can micromanage their lives, organize all their mess into where each thing shld be put in place, and voila! everything runs like clockwork. but 1) are such people merely a myth? and 2) without spontaneity and chance, what wld that make me?
a perfect robot. but perfection is admirable, no?
Monday, July 28, 2008 @ 2:47 PM
gay lo,
this one is for you
was looking thru the clutter of photos in my laptop and i found this screenshot
haha what a joker. you're totally missing from my life now! ALL our plans to meet end up failing. running away to hongkong (and you didnt even find chungking mansions or the midnight express stall) with only one night in advance notice. i painstakingly tried to find you nice things in bkk while you refused to buy me H&M in hk. wah thanks i love you.
finding nemo has just turned into finding nicholas.
stop making plans without me and fit me into a slot for say.. our onceuponatime weekly supper at siglap.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008 @ 11:30 AM
true
time to accomplish so many things..
one tiny step at a time
and it took me so long to see
that the sweetest heart belongs to you
Thursday, July 17, 2008 @ 10:01 AM
queen bee with the honeyed sting
sorry if we all fall short of your excellence
but we fall even harder when your sweet choice of words
slice our rotten cores
one-of-a-kind girl
(but thank gdness there's only one of you)
Tuesday, July 15, 2008 @ 4:46 PM
strange.
to feel blessed and cursed all at the same time.
Thursday, July 03, 2008 @ 11:30 AM
b to the k to the k
xoxocharly will be back on monday with lotsa goodies for family and friends and loved ones! for all those who made special requests, thank you for making my shopping search easier. eg. janice's singlet last year and droste cacao chocolate powder (..?) this year. good on you janice! for those who didnt.. well you just gotta see what i come up with.. probably last minute after i'm done with MY shopping haha.
its rather bad timing that i have my tummy tantrums and new this morning.. an ulcer. >:C <-- nette's angsty face. but i'm still determined to have fun no matter what.. a few eye opening experiences and lotsssa photos!
one more thing. since i travel so little (deprived), i have a paranoia of dying in plane crashes. so in case it rilly happens.. i just wanna say i love you and you and you and you and you you YOU.
xoxo.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008 @ 12:27 AM
beautiful blues
so once again o school plans failed on cdk due to upset tummies for all 3 of us. coincidence? hoho. brief meetup w bev, melly & nicole before fcdl <3to<3 talk on a bench at the war memorial park. mistaken ambulance turned out to be trishaw w bright lights. haha!
a couple of what-ifs have been running thru my mind lately. but it's too late to reconsider them neway. i guess the main point is how we're hindered by the present. we judge people based on the now, but pple change. as time goes by, they're gonna turn out different.. maybe better. moral of the story: time changes everything.. but sadly it's the only thing we can't turn back.
btw its interesting how i change my mind so easily, depending on my mood.
and okay goodnight before i utter more useless random nonsense.